Hey y'all long time no see. Nice to see some old faces back (Kairne and Flo been like eva). And nice to hear you all are having a really good holiday (well those who mentioned it).
So I am actually kinda destroyed emotionally right now. I was absolutely in love with a guy named JAy, my best friend really. I was happier than I had been most my life. I was going to see him again in January, to look for a place nearby so we could like start a life together (this was planned for months). Then just recently he texts me during work that he needed to tell me something and didn't wanna wait. He'd fallen out of love with me and only saw me as a friend. I was really hurt TBH, and like I'm strong usually I can take ****, but this hurt me. I decided to try to stay friends cause we still are important to eachother.....and we have been friends. But then I find out he downloaded tinder less than a week after breaking my heart and met a cheerleader dude he apparently REALLY likes named Ryan (I hate that name with a passion now). I wanna just like completely end my friendship with him, but I also still value him alot as a person and he cried when I suggested not talking to him anymore. Iunno I feel more confused now then when I did when I came out. Plus there's the fact that I have non returnable tickets to go there in january.......wooooooo. I'm being as strong as I can but **** this is the most hurt I've ever felt.